What the heck happened?

I felt so inspired last week and now I'm just... I don't even know.  I feel like I need to make myself upset in order to make good artwork and I really don't like being sad. I'm happy right now. I'm more content than I have been in such a long time but I guess happiness doesn't look good on me so I have to go back to being a mopey bum.  I sound like such an emo jerk.  I feel like I just need to sit myself down and get into a state of mind from which I can't escape. At least until winter break then I can put a pause on it. I don't know I wish it were easier to get moody but I don't know... I don't feel like I'm in any sort of throes of emotion right now even though I think I need to be.  There's no passion in my life right now and in order for me to make something that is authentic and me I feel like that needs to be the case. Ugh!