I feel like I have so many ideas and so much creativity running through me just screaming and yelling and trying to get out but I also feel like I don't possess the ability to make my thoughts happen. Is there some sort of career where I can just give people great ideas and then someone else can go out and execute them? If so, that would be the life for me. It seems like whenever I go about looking for things for myself research wise, I end up finding a billion things that would aid other people in their endeavors but nothing that is of interest to me. What am I supposed to do with that? Ugh, it's just so frustrating.
On a lighter note, I have been getting good ideas for my upcoming sailor moon tattoo, which I'm super stoked about. Of course, having ideas for that doesn't do me any good in the photography arena.
Back to being gloomy. I miss having all my super close friends close in proximity to me. I mean, Alanna's always been far away (and I'm starting to get worried she's not going to come visit next month, after all) but Stef was closer and Khaleelah... I feel like I'm missing out on something. I know it's good to be responsible but sometimes I wish I were a little more carefree. The stress that comes from not getting things done, though, just builds up and I just end up not being able to enjoy myself. But, like I said, I'm missing out on my youth. I feel like I'm missing out on being completely ridiculous and spontaneous. This is something that's plagued me even through high school and I'm just being reminded of it now. Maybe if I stop creeping on peoples' Facebooks and seeing all their pictures of themselves having fun with their friends all candid and such, these feelings will go away. Ugh. Back to homework!
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