so new to me

i'm trying to get a feeling for all of this.  it is more new to me than anything else i've ever known.  there is a loneliness in this solitude but not one so crippling as before.  the quiet is appreciated, but it is not all i want. this is a chasm too deep for oceans to fill and only a miracle will do.  let us find the strength of diamonds and plunge headfirst into the murkiness of the unknown without fear or facsimile. there could be no heartbreak greater than the one suffered when this vessel was shattered in an overheated kiln.  mend me with the slip and shadows. keep the cracks bound with the memory of everything that will never be and free yourself from my marred flesh as i am consumed by the heat of the fire.